A promise is a Promise

Remember i promised i will explain the meaning of "AKSJAAL"

now here is the time

I wasn't born to be a middle manager, a middle man or middle anything.

Ambition has kissed my cheeks and she has whispered dreams in my ears.

Even so, I confess my dreams have been laugh at...

And I ??????

I laugh right back

I believe great things can't created by free people, but by men who are slaves to their ideas.

I belong to my idea.

And though i may be rejected, dejected or interjected.

I wouldn't be denied.

I am the harvester of opportunities.
I am an __________ (not now)

Ashwini

now what i am?

i will explain later.

END OF ANOTHER CHAPTER

THEY CALL IT SUMMER INTERNSHIP PROGRAM

Today i.e. 3 july 2010 end of my summer internship at reliance money, gandhinagar. and guess what today only rainy season started here. you know i was praying for it since day one of my internship as i can use rain as an excuse for not attending the office. ;)

i know god know me better than me :( thats why today he showered his blessing on us.

actually i don't know what type of feeling i am possessing today. its a mixed type. one side i am happy "chalo picha chuta" and on other side i am missing that life full of targets. the way we kill all our valuable time.

Eight weeks of tough training.

some 200+ phone calls

1 day of field induction

zero business in terms of insurance and demat.

..

ok ok jokes apart

one thing i learned at reliance

this world is full of competition and i am not an exception

"bahut sooch vichar k mujhe ye line dhayan aati hai"

"jis dil main hai josh e humnashi

uske liye muskile bhi hasi"

MILEY JAB HUM TUM

DOSTI AUR PYAR K FASANE BANE

MILEY JAB HUM TUM

This story is about a boy, a part of his life.

How a boy losses his innocence and become expert in a field which people use to call mature. Yes if predicting someone's behavior is called maturity then I am mature. Yes if suspecting someone's favor towards me is called maturity then I am mature. Yes if expecting a friend in every human and finally realizing that you are wrong is expected to become mature then yes I am mature.

So being mature is not that bad.

It always leads to expectation that someone will come and prove that you are wrong. One who comes and says We are friends right.

AKSJAAL

KYUKI

CHAMPION SIRF EK HOTA HAI AUR JAGAH KOI NAI LE SAKTA

NOT EVEN GOD

DESTINY

Choices Not Chance Determines Destiny

"hamara chunav hi hamara bhavishya chunta hai" i know these lines are in Hindi but what can i do? i had seen matrix in Hindi. ;)

Yes this line is from one of the most interesting movies i have ever seen in my life "Matrix".

initially when this movie was first released then at that time the concept of DVD, VCD, was not there. for the first time i had seen this movie on VCR and that too on rent. frankly speaking "kuch samaj main nai aaya tha" as the movie was in English. And that too "mayajaal". i manage to see this movie for three times but i hardly got anything. but later during my engineering once in the market i saw the DVD of this movie:

MATRIX I

MATRIX REVOLUTION

MATRIX RELOADED

And suddenly "abe ye to vahi movie hai" and that too the DVD was in Hindi. and without thinking further i purchased that DVD.

There is a problem with me. Unless i get answer to my question "mujhe shanti nai milti" and this time the question was " why i am so passionate about this movie"? "teen baar first part dekha aaj tak samaj nai aai to ab kya aayegi vo bhi all three parts".

Then again the cycle begins. this time part 1 two times and i got the answer of my question. this movie is based on a concept that i always think off. are we really alive? we are there right?

then what is mirror universe? if i travel at a speed more then that of the speed of light then how can i go in to future and past?

When i was kid (oh ya ya i m still kid) means when i was three years old every morning i woke up with a question in my mind "kya main sach main jag gaya hu? ya main abhi bhi sapne main hi hu? kahi aisa to nai main jo bhi feel kar raha hu dekh raha hu sab ek sapna hai?"

and this is the question I am still fighting with.

this movie has a very beautiful line our choice determines our destiny.

and i think its true.

i am responsible for what i am.

i am what i am not because i love it but because life teaches me these things only.

at every turning of life i was the chooser of my direction. yup sometimes my parents use to take on my behalf. but that too is my decision right.

this post is not going to end here as i am still searching my destiny.

for complete post wait for few minutes ;)

LETS START

So finally after creating a blog in September 2007 today i.e. 22 may 2010 at 1:10 am ist i got some time to post something in it.

I think probably this is my 1st post. So I am a bit nervous. what to write? how to write? and most important is it necessary to write in English??????

let me try. unless i will try, how can i get the answers of all these questions? that too asked by me only..

Lets start.

My name is Ashwini.

Now here a million dollar question arises then what about AKSJAAL?

Frankly saying its a tricky question. Ashwini is a name given to me by my Parents. My friends call me with the name they are comfortable with and I call myself with the name I am comfortable with.

Let me tell you here AKS stands for "Ashwini Kumar Singh", yes thats my full name.

JaaL: i think i am not capable enough to explain this word today.

But one day I will and thats a Promise. And I know a promise is a promise Mr. Ratan Tata.

What more to write and that too on first day?

Let me think for some time and I will be back soon.....